A day for inspection

I may or may not have said what i do, who i am, why i'm here. I am a full time postgraduate student, in a course that is described as 'full on', 'intense' 'hell'....the last one i added in myself....oops!!
 It is intense and it is full on, it's hell because there is always something that needs to be done, is due in, or something that I'm going to get examined on. Sadly the later is fastly approaching and instead of having the motivation to crack on with the work needed to do it I'm writing this....

I have been on placement for the last 6 weeks, 1 week after finishing a month or more of revision and the worst exams i may ever have come across. I'm a little bit drained to say the least but happily buzzing along like a bee to pollen. I'm on a misson. A misson to pass all these exams so i can get on and enjoy the summer, the sun, and what may possibly be 2 months of relaxation, craftiness, baking and crochet learning....fun right?

Now i don't want you to think i am entirely lazy, even though i confess that although i am a hard worker when needed, i am a lazy soul. I just don't like to feel pressure, stress or in a rush. That's why i get up a good hour before i have to leave the house in the morning because I'm too lazy to want to hurry up so i could get an extra 20 minutes in bed. BUT i have done the bulk of the work for this exam, session plans, a session, creation of a DVD (even if it wont play), and now, tonight i am faced with the task of repeatedly having to watch and listen to myself on video and make notes and create a presentation on it...ugh!

My laziness is not the only thing that has held me back from doing this so far. My casual and laid back manner has also interrupted my progress. Every time i think about starting i think to myself 'does it really need that much work, you know what you did and why, you like to talk in general, why prepare so far in advance?', well stupid brain you are not as laid back as you would like to think, no when it comes to it you're going to forget everything you need to say and get all shaky. Shaky does not lead to good marks.

I've got one more day of placement, three whole days to think about this exam and tonight to make a start on this presentation. Through writing all this down i have managed to get that ol' grey matter of mine thinking, getting used to self inspection and hopefully, ready to start this work.
Fingers crossed i don't bail out of it now!
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